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Wednesday, November 05, 2008

All I want - is to have a place to call home. I don’t need a huge fancy house or a condo. I just want a place where I can feel at ease, and happy to live in. Living in my parents’ apartment is absolute torture. There are too many people under one roof and, the constant nagging and money grabbing mentality is just too toxic for me. Also, I can never leave anything there without worrying that someone might take it away. The only reason why I still bother to go back is because of my grandmother - because I still hold a decent amount of respect and love for her... and, the fact that my pets are there as well.

I am happy to stay with Nick. I get to take care of him to a certain extend as well. I mean, I would love to cook for him every day, but the refrigerator is just too disgusting to store anything. I feel rather restricted there too. Also, dogs, or any other pets are not allowed there.

Because of the no pets thing - which I do not understand since I will be the one cleaning up the mess anyway... and if I have to go on a business trip, I can always put the animals on boarding for a couple of days. I’d much rather that than having to be constantly on the move. East to West and West to East again on every alternate day is awfully tiring. I just want to stay at one place!

I honestly feel like giving up my studies at this point. I can use that money to rent a room in an apartment. Of course, I’ll have to look for one where the tenants won’t mind having a dog around. I’ve been surfing through some sites, and so far the places that would allow pets are mainly rented to expatriates. I don’t exactly mind all that, but I would hate the idea of not having Nick around.

No one would listen to me when I try to seek for advice. They end up shooting me down and telling me to continue my studies. They have no clue how shitty I feel with all of this. I can honestly say that I’m been working really hard since the age of 16 to try to support myself. The fact that with all the crap I have to pay for, I end up not having much money left.

With all the pressure from work and school... Taking all the bullshit from my parents, coming out to work rather than studying full time like a person my age is supposed to be doing, earning all that bloody money!!!? And still, not to able to have a proper place to stay at!? Why the fuck should I even bother then!?

And I really miss Bambi and Krisy. :(

Love,
Brenda.
11/05/2008 10:49:00 AM

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Esther's back in Singapore. This means... Krisy's going back to her on Monday evening. I'm gonna miss that tubby little runt. Esther says when she's travelling, Krisy can come stay with me again. :) I guess that's good enough. With Bambi gone.. it's just too quiet at home.

Love,
Brenda.
11/02/2008 01:52:00 PM

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Spent my birthday with Ling and Jill last night. We had dinner at Stew House and terrible Rosé wine from Vie Bar. They used to carry Beringer, which was predominantly why we went there in the first place. If I'm not wrong, I think we were looking to have 'Beringer California White Zinfandel - Fresh red berry, citrus and melon aromas and flavors with subtle hints of nutmeg and clove.' Instead, we got a cheap and crappier wine. =(

Anyway, some photos from Ling's camera.

I think this is the third year in a row that I celebrated my birthday with Ling and Jill. I really enjoy these excuse for a meet-up. We're all getting too caught up with our own little things in life now that its really hard to gather and see each other. I suppose such annual meetings on birthdays are awfully special.

Love,
Brenda.
11/01/2008 10:40:00 AM

Friday, October 31, 2008

So much for partying it up or having a great 21st birthday celebration... After contemplating heaps on what to have for dinner, we finally settled for Italian. The fine wine and dinning at Otto was fantastic. The food was delicious. One of the best steaks I’ve ever tasted. The meat literally melts in the mouth! And the hint of truffles was absolutely divine. I’m very grateful for his efforts in taking me, controlling his temper, really behaving, despite hating the formal and uptight environment. The fact that the waiters kept pushing the white truffles to us didn’t help either. Monkey detests that scent. But... he kept his cool and got through the evening without creating a scene. Anyway, bottom line – I will never go to a fine dining restaurant with him again. Just like how I’ll never go to the cinemas with him. He honestly proved his point. We did agree on something though... the tenderloin steak is definitely worth going back for.

After dinner, we decided to head home to have an early night. The evening went downhill from there. His points for all that effort during dinner, basically turned to a whole lot of nothing. I won’t go into details but honestly... I did not expect my 21st birthday to end with buckets full of tears.

I’m meeting Ling later tonight for dinner. I hope this would make up for last night.

Love,
Brenda.
10/31/2008 03:35:00 AM

Monday, October 13, 2008

Photos from the Grand Opening Ceremony held on 12th October.

Colleagues from the Japan office.

Along with ones from Singapore...

The Bangladash depot people joined in... ... ...

We were then made to sing a Japanese song entitled "I LOVE SEA" HAHAHAHAHA.

Love,
Brenda.
10/13/2008 11:37:00 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2008

I've been making multiple trips to KL for the month of September and October. Finally, the Opening Ceremony is coming up! Well, it's tomorrow and I can't wait to get it over and done with. Oh, and I'll get to check out all my banners, gifts, plaque designs as well! :)

The drive up to KL was a crazy one. I'm never doing that again. We almost got into a couple of accidents due to bad weather, and an idiotic driver from another car. I reckon we were all really lucky to arrive at Concorde Hotel in one piece.

Anyway, before I go to bed, I thought I'd post some of the photos we took earlier, at the Corporate Cocktail Dinner.