Tuesday, August 12, 2008

He’s got someone else now. And all these time, I’ve been foolish enough to constantly reminisce the times we had together. Since he left, I’ve been trying so hard to distract myself from the pain. Focusing on my career, taking up night classes, dating, and even taking care of a man whom is almost completely emotionally retarded.

I try really hard to be vivacious, and I honestly seem to be pulling it off most of the time. Is it real though? Why does it hurt so bad seeing him with another woman?

My life is a joke. What am I doing seriously!? Everything I apply at work, uni, miscellaneous things everyday, a part of it all comes from him. I’ve learned so much from that man. How can I forget? He is embedded deeply inside me.

What did I do wrong? It’s been almost a year and I still don’t know why he left.

Beginning a new chapter with another person seemed like a pretty good idea. I found someone else. He is smart, intense, talented, funny, and well, he seems to care about me... I only wish he would love me enough for me to trust him completely.

I want to be happy. I need to be. I want a home. An abode where I can be myself, have pets and children running around, laughing. A family to cook for... to be around people who loves, and appreciates me...

When will it be my turn?

Love,
Brenda.
8/12/2008 10:34:00 PM